Go listen to the band One Ok Rock, they're amazing!!
Someone told me today that me liking rock music and wearing a lot of black is just a phase, a stage of being a teenager.
I found it actually very offensive and got a bit angry.
They then continued to say "Oh yeah my girls went through it and you will too" and continued to explain at how it was just them trying to be rebellious, different or cool.
I like rock music and wearing these kinds of cloths because I genuinely like it! I wear cool punk cloths not to make other people see me as cool but because I think they're cool and I wanna wear them.
Yeah that doesn't prove that this isn't just a phase and I'll move on to liking girly stuff and 1D and JB and whatever.
But NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS do I see myself becoming that. I loathe 1D, JB, dresses and purses with 100% of my being.
And this 'phase' started even before I became a teenager, I'm just acting more upon it now because I have the resources [my own laptop to download music, knowledge of which stores to shop at, getting a job for money, etc.]
What started it was my discovery of animation, which opened me up to animators with a bit of a dark side. I idolized Flightfoorwarrior / XxFlightFeathersxX / Unpleasant Pheasant in my early animating days and in her videos I found "Monster" by Skillet and a few other awesome songs. "Monster" by Skillet was the song that started it for me and I still love that song to this day. My personality fit perfectly with the rock music and listening to the lyrics I was sitting there like "Where has this been all my life!?" and "Those stupid songs on the radio don't have meaningful lyrics like this!!!" I looked around Skillet songs mostly, then moving on to TFK, then Linkin Park, Evanescence, Paramore, Hollywood Undead, Icon For Hire, Pierce The Veil, Devour The Day, Fall Out Boy, Of Mice And Men....
Looking back I always had a bit of a dark side. I hated the meaningless romance songs my mom listens to [I mean seriously it's all the same...they're either talking about being soo in love with someone, sex, or breaking up with someone]. I started writing books and stuff around the time I turned 8 and when I was 9 I remember writing a book about two kids getting lost in a swamp and getting burned to death, then later a book about a girl who had her arm cut off and going after the guys who did it.
I love this kind of dark genre because it has meaning, it shows that this world is not our definition of paradise, that it may be crappy and there are issues but there is still hope. It's reality, the darkness in this world that everyone overlooks and replaces with sex and dance songs. But you also have to remember that there is always hope, and by not being blind to it you have the chance to fix it. This world is already perfect, it has a balance of good and evil and with free will you get to choose. Just because I love darkness and violence doesn't make me a bad person, a sadist, or a devil worshipper. I'm an embracer of reality and I also want to be tough and break free from the stereotypical weak innocent girl. "Reality" doesn't mean hope doesn't exist, it doesn't mean that because you can't see it it doesn't exist or that miracles can't happen. Reality is our world, our existence and everything around it, the good and the bad. Illusion is being blind to one of the sides. Everything that happens, everything that exists is reality. So if a miracle happens to you, consider it a reality =3
Got carried away there but I really don't want to be a phase because I love this lifestyle. I'm not doing this for a reason other than that I love this stuff and it suites me.
On another note about religious misconception [from both Christians and doubters/non-believers]
I hate it when people tell me "Oh, well if God is so great why does he let so much bad stuff happen? Why did he make the devil?"
You can't have good without bad.
An Earth where everything meets our definition of "paradise" can not exist. Yeah that's what God intended in the beginning but God gave us free choice and in doing that we changed our world's destiny.
Now you're probably thinking "Well then why do we have free choice? The world would be perfect without it."
Oh okay, didn't know you prefer being a mindless zombie controlled by God. God is love, and he loves us enough to let us make our own choices. It's like with parents. You can choose to do something great and make your parents very happy or you could be a rebel.
"My mom died of cancer, it's God's fault and I hate Him for it!!!"
Shut up. Just shut. the f. up. Read the dang Bible, or at least Genesis. In the beginning God made the world and humans for us to never die, never get sick, and live perfect lives. He wanted Earth to be another section of heaven. If you want to blame someone for your loved one dying, getting sick, killed, robbed, etc, blame humanity. [I'm not saying lose faith in it, there is always good out there.] Satan tempted Eve and Eve went along with it. It's because of those two your mom died of cancer. So go and blame them!
Anyway we turned our little sector of heaven in to Earth. Earth is a place between heaven and hell.
Never say "Oh Earth is hell." or "Earth is heaven."
It's between the two, and if you want to see a bit more of hell, be rude, cruel and wicked.
If you want to see more of heaven, be nice, have and open mind and a positive attitude.
My friend also said something a few months ago.
He said: "You're just Christian to get into heaven, just for the reward."
Heaven is NOT a reward.
It's a CHOICE!
I choose to be good and go to heaven. If heaven is what they say it is, who in their right mind doesn't want to go there!?
Sure yeah hell seems tempting to my dark side but believe me I'll be thankful later on that I chose heaven.
Free will everyone.
You have a choice.